Sunday, September 14, 2008
stressed, confused and tired ..
well well ..
yesterday's performance was ..
well? ..
i guess its worse than the one in ubi ..(in my opinion la ..)
but my senior say I do better ..
haiya ..
i suck forever ..
in no matter what I do ..
I can't do anything right ..
I'm a complete failure ..
I'm a incomplete human ..
..
Had a very weird dream last night ..
forgot what is it ..
but its quite interesting ..
..
i think its about war ah? ..
then I was chased by lots of people
cause I was about to destroy the world ..
I guess?
..
hahaha ..
if only that could happen ..
it would be the best ..
well ..
this morning ..
huimin came to my house ..
but never come in la ..
she out side the gate ..
cause I going out soon ..
therefore ..
even if she came in ..
I going out ...
so ..
theres no point ..
???????
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dont know if you know what that means but ..
what the heck ..
so some questions ..
1. Why are you blogging?
-waiting for anime to load ..
2. How are you feeling?
-now? hmm, stressed, confused and tired ..
4. Do you feel a sense of accomplishment this year?
-not quite ..I feel a sense of failure this year.
5. Are you feeling emo this year?
-hmm ..not recently. I'm just forcing myself to look on the bright side rather than thinking of dying.
6. Do you feel annoyed ? By who?
-Very very Annoyed ! ..brother ..
7. Do you play an instrument(s)? What instrument(s)?
-yes ..
.Piano
.Guitar
.Clarinet
.Bass Clarinet
8. Are there any(more) insturment that you wanna learn? What instrument(s)?
-yes!
.Violin
9. Do you know how to dance? Which type?
-no ..
10. Are there any(more) dance(s) that you wanna learn? What type?
-yes
.Popping
.Breakdancing
11. Do you play sports? What kind?
-yes
.Badminton
.Wushu
.Basketball(not good)
.Swimming(not good)
12. Are there any(more) sport(s) that you wanna learn? What kind?
-yes
.Kendo
.Ai-kido
13. Do you like birthdays?
-mine? I have never enjoyed it completely.
-others? I have never enjoyed it completely.
14. Do you like your family?
-sometimes. But they are my family, of couse I have to like them.
15. Do you like your friends?
-sometimes. Depends who they are. But they are my friends, of couse I have to like them.
16. Have you shown your true colours to anyone?
-I guess I haven't.
17. Do you speak any languages other than English? What are they?
-yes ..
.Chinese(not good)
.Japanese(not good at all)
18. Have you ever acted cool just to impress someone?
-yes
19. Have you ever been influenced by someone bad and got addicted to something against the law?
-I guess not.
20. Please describe " Your World ".
- It is painted in White and Grey and It kept working hard by producing sounds everyday. It is very peaceful as no humans existed. Sometimes, some humans tried to break in and war started. However, after every war, it remained empty and quiet.
21. Please describe " Your Friends ".
-They are kind and very precious to me. However, they have their own lifes which I should never interfere with. They have their own attitude which I could never change. They have their own minds and ideas which I can never think of. They are good at things they do and I can never meet up to their standards. Therefore, I have to try my best to help them in whatever I can. And so ..I remained as quiet as ever.
22. Please describe " Your Family ".
-Like wise. They are very precious and important to me. But they have their own lifes and attitudes due to some influences. Everyone is smart and very good at something. I can never meet up to their standards. They are one of a kind individualy and together.
23. Why are you asking yourself these things?
-because I wanted to know more.
24. Ever thought of dying
-last time ..
25. Ever thought of destroying the world?
- yes
26. Ever thought of erasing your existance?
-Everytime
27. Do you have a split personality?
-Don't know ..?
28. Ever thought of creating something new that everyone could appreciate? Have you did it?
- yes.
-I did not.
29. What is your dream name? Why name it?
-Shiro
-the word shiro was taken from the word "o'shiroi" (which means white in japanese). And white is the symbol of pure. And so, I wanted everything in my mind to be clear and pure.
30. Do you think that everything you have done up till now is just ...a fake?
- Yes.
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well ..
that was some odd questions ..
..
(i created it myself ..so dont try to get it from anywhere ..)
and now my anime has loaded finish ..
JAAA !